STORMS DON’T LAST FOREVER!

This morning a major storm hit our area due to Tropical Storm Isaias. There was major rain, high winds, and flash flooding. Our power went out and several roads were shut down in our area due to the massive flooding. We were also under a Tornado Warning for about a hour. At 7am we all went to the basement to be safe (myself, my wife, our 3 kids, and our chocolate lab Remi). It was all a bit scary and definitely frustrating, and our home received some water damage, but oh well. No big deal. Insurance will take care of that. It could’ve been much worse.

The good news is … the storm passed. They always do.

BECAUSE STORMS DON’T LAST FOREVER!

Right now, as I sit here in my home office typing this blog, I look out the window and see the radiant sun breaking through the clouds to reveal stunning blue sky. All is calm.

BECAUSE STORMS DON’T LAST FOREVER!

I have to keep reminding myself of that fact because I’ve been in the midst of a pretty bad storm for about 4 weeks now. It’s some sort of relapse or flare-up. This has happened before. It’s nasty and discouraging at times.

This morning when I woke up, there was immediate pain/pressure around my left temple area. Daily headaches have been pounding on me. A few hours later, nausea and fatigue decide to pay me a visit even though I actually slept great last night.

Stop right there. … You know what? I have to stop focusing on what’s wrong with me. I slept great last night and I’m actually extremely thankful for that … for good sleep, because so many people who are battling Lyme Disease and co-infections have horrible/unrelenting insomnia. I’ve been there. It’s absolutely miserable. You’re utterly fatigued all day and then when it’s finally time to sleep … YOU CAN’T.

“Just shoot me people!” 🙄

With my health issues, I’m definitely not where I want to be, but I’m not feeling quite as bad as I was 3 weeks ago. There’s been some progress/improvement – and that’s what I really need to focus on. It could be so much worse (SOOOOO MUCH WORSE). I need to do better at focusing on the good things … I.E. = over the last week … I’ve been able to work my job for about 6 hours per day … I’ve been able to do some lite exercising (road biking and weight training) … I’ve been able to read a few chapters in books … I’ve been able to walk my dog and wrestle with him … I was able to go out on a date with my wife (dinner and shopping) … I’ve been able to watch some TV shows with my wife at night … I’ve been able to eat pretty normal (my appetite is back without horrible stomach pains) … I’ve been able to enjoy a small amount of bourbon at night with no issues… I’ve been able to talk to some friends on the phone (without major brain fog hindering me) … and a few times, I laughed … I actually had some moments of genuine, from the gut, laughter (I love to laugh).

Just typing out those good things that I’ve recently been able to experience makes me feel a little bit better about my current situation and it gives me motivation and hope to keep pressing on.

Heavenly Father, see me through this. Please continue to bring healing to my body, brain, and memory. Lead me in the path of healing and wholeness. Strengthen my inner man as I continue to fight this battle. Give me a right perspective of this trial and somehow use it for good to help others. I can’t do this without You. Amen.

Psalm 5:1-2 “Give ear to my words, O Lord, consider my groaning. Give attention to the sound of my cry, my King and my God, for to You do I pray.”

By the way, today I began a new treatment protocol … The Restore Kit by Vital Plan. Hopefully it will bring more healing/relief. We shall see. I’ve also been reading the book BITTEN by Kris Newby (The Secret History of Lyme Disease and Biological Weapons). It’s absolutely chilling! She’s a great writer.

Hang in there people, and remember … STORMS DON’T LAST FOREVER!

Still Battling,

Jason

Disclaimer: Jason T. George is not a medical professional. The content of BattlingLyme.com is for informational purposes only and is not intended to substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, and treatment. Always seek the advice of your physician or other qualified health provider with any questions or concerns you may have regarding a medical condition. Never disregard professional medical advice or delay in seeking it because of something you have read, seen, or heard from Jason T. George.

Chronic Lyme Disease – 13 Things That Help Me Feel Better!

This past week was definitely a better week for me than the week before. Yes, my symptoms were still there, but they weren’t as intense. I was actually able to work on a paint job for 5 days. That is a tremendous answer to prayer. No, it was not a pain-free 5 days, but it was better than usual.

So what’s helping me feel better? …

1Diet/Nutrition … I’ve been maintaining a strict/healthy diet and that means less inflammation/pain. I avoid sugar, gluten, and dairy. I’ve also been avoiding fried foods, artificial sweeteners, vegetable oils, beans, and alcohol. I eat as organic as I possibly can. If I eat sugar, it’s less than 12g.

2Sleep … I’ve been consistently going to bed at a decent hour to make sure I’m getting plenty of uninterrupted sleep. Last night I was in bed at 9pm (on a Saturday night). I don’t even care. For me to have uninterrupted sleep, I sometimes have to sleep in the guest bedroom. I hate doing that as a married man, but uninterrupted sleep is absolutely vital to my health and ability to work my job which enable me to make money for my family’s needs and wants.

3Supplements … I’ve been extremely consistent with taking my vitamins, supplements, and meds. I take many of them 2 to 3 times per day … Vitamin C, Magnesium, Turmeric Curcumin, Vitamin D, Vitamin B-12, Omega 3 Fish Oil, Cordyceps, Ashwaganda, Lithium Synergy, 5-HTP, GABA, Cat’s Claw, Burbur Pinella, Resveratrol, L-Glutathione, Chlorella, Real NAD Plus, Feverview, and CoQ10.

4Hydrate … I literally drink about a gallon of water per day (Spring Water or Filtered or Alkaline).

5Avoiding Stress/Conflict … That means I avoid certain people, conversations, debates, arguments, etc. Even on social media. Especially on social media. You can have it. As for me, “Ain’t nobody got time for dat!”

6 Prayer … Every morning and throughout my day I’m constantly calling on God for healing, strength, energy, clarity of mind, peace, etc. Mornings are typically the roughest part of my day, and I often feel like there’s NO WAY I can possibly make it through my work day. Honestly, most people wouldn’t even go to work feeling the way that I do. I cling to Philippians 4:13 … “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”

7Talk Therapy … I’ve recently talked with two different therapists/counselors who have personally battled Lyme Disease. They’re way further along the road to healing than I am. I also regularly talk with and listen to friends who are battling Lyme Disease. It really helps. Bottling things up and trying to face it on my own was making me feel much worse. Don’t isolate. Don’t bottle up.

8Frequent Breaks … I take extended lunch breaks to rest in my work truck after I eat lunch (a benefit of owning my own company). When I get home from work in the evening, I also lay on the floor for 30-minutes and allow my two dogs (Remi and Ruger) to sniff and lick all over me … then they typically nestle up beside me. I love it and need it.

9Bind and Detox … Several times a week I take Activated Charcoal tablets to bind-up toxins … and I also do hot epsom salt baths … and at least once per week, I go to the local spa for a 30-minute session in the infrared sauna.

10Don’t Overdo It … I push myself, but not too much … I’m learning to listen to my body and know my limits with this disease so I don’t overdo it. Like the other day … I was at work and I really wanted to finish an area that I was painting, but I could feel my brain fog coming on strong with a frontal headache. My lower left abdomen pain also began to increase. I knew right then and there it was time to clean-up, pack-up, and call it a day. My body was saying, “Enough! Time to rest!”

11Keep Learning … I’m constantly reading books, articles, and blogs … or listening to podcasts or audio books … that help me improve/heal physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually! Today I began reading The Healer Within by Holly Chameli. She’s recovered from Chronic Lyme, CFS, and Autuimmune Disease. Her story is inspiring me and giving me hope.

12Have a Yoda … I pay big bucks out of pocket (insurance won’t cover a dime) to see a top Lyme Disease Specialist who listens to me, runs various tests on me, advises me, and prescribes various holistic/naturopathic treatments that help heal me. His name is Greg Lee and he’s with the Lyme Research and Healing Center in Frederick, MD.

13Move … You have to keep physically active. That looks different for all of us depending upon what stage we’re at in the healing journey. If all you can do is walk out to your mailbox and walk back, do it. Then the next week, walk to your neighbor’s mailbox. Do some sort of physical activity and keep increasing it week by week, but don’t overdo it. There will be some days (or weeks) where you’re flaring-up or having a bad herx reaction, and all you need to do is rest/sleep/recover. Dude, I get it. Been there. Done that. Got the T-Shirt!

As I said, this past week was definitely a better week for me, but I realize that tomorrow I could wake-up and experience a major relapse. That’s how it goes sometimes. Nevertheless, I will continue to keep doing these 13 things in my battle to heal.

Battling With You,

Jason

Today my daughter Gabrielle and I took Remi to a local park to play and then we went to Starbucks for a treat. Watching her laugh at Remi while he lapped-up a pupacino was therapeutic.

Jason T. George is not a medical professional. The content of BattlingLyme.com is for informational purposes only and is not intended to substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, and treatment. Always seek the advice of your physician or other qualified health provider with any questions or concerns you may have regarding a medical condition. Never disregard professional medical advice or delay in seeking it because of something you have read, seen, or heard from Jason T. George.

Painting Ceilings in Major Pain!

Some days I don’t know how I’m going to make it through. Today was one of those days. I woke up around 6am, and immediately I was hit with major nausea. If I remain in bed, I just focus on it. So I get up, use the bathroom, drink a glass of water, and lay on the couch while the coffee brews. As I lay on the couch, the left side of my face begins to twitch. I feel miserable and I have a paint job today and it’s nothing but ceiling painting. That’s some of the hardest painting you can do. It strains your neck and back for hours on end. Oh well, no use in complaining.

The coffee is ready. I pour myself a cup, sip on it slowly, and eat 1/2 of a gluten-free breakfast bar. That’s about all my stomach can tolerate. For my morning meditation … I read Psalm 103, write some notes in my journal, and spend some time in prayer. Here’s what I wrote in my journal …

“Abba, I’m claiming Psalm 103 where You say … You forgive all my iniquity – You heal all my diseases – You redeem my life from the pit – You crown me with steadfast love and mercy – You satisfy me with good – You renew my youth like the eagles.”

In my journal, I question God, “Why would You have such words in Scripture if they are not there to claim when your children are in the pit of pain and despair?”

I go on and read Psalm 103:13 … As a father shows compassion to his children, so the Lord shows compassion to those who fear Him. For He knows our frame. He remembers that we are dust.

I beg God to fulfill this verse in my life, and then tell Him, “Today I have a paint job here in the neighborhood. I need Your help, Lord. I can’t do this without You. That’s how sick I’ve felt lately. I don’t have the strength to do this on my own. You have strengthened me before and I trust You will do it again. In Jesus mighty name, amen.”

After that, I get up, get dressed for work, load up the truck, and kiss my wife goodbye. I stop by the paint store to pick up some supplies. I’m still nauseous and having bad left abdomen pain. My anxiety is also messing with me. I try not to focus on it. I get to the job by 8:30am. I’m in major pain all morning as I work. MAJOR PAIN! Again, I want to go to the E.R. and get help, but it’s pointless so I get it out of my mind. “This will pass Jason. Hang in there.”

At 11:30am, I take a break for lunch and head to Chipotle. I order a burrito bowl … just white rice, double chicken, and some guac. My stomach typically does okay with those three items. I still feel nauseous with left abdomen pain, major fatigue, and malaise. After eating, I put my seat back in my work truck and rest for about 20 minutes. I end up texting with one of my friends who is battling brain cancer.

I’m back on the job by 1pm. Now my upper stomach aches. It feels bloated like it needs to release some gas. 20 minutes later I finally begin belching and it releases the pressure. “Why is my stomach so jacked up the last few months?” I drunk a little bit of Starbucks coffee as I continued painting the ceilings. Thankfully, today I didn’t really deal with one of my nasty headaches that brings on horrible brain fog. As the afternoon progressed, my symptoms began to reduce. Thank God! I worked til 4:30pm and then packed up. I have to be careful not to overdo it.

I came home, put my equipment away, and just laid on the floor with the dogs for 30-minutes. They help me feel relaxed. My neck and mid-back are extremely sore. I took some meds and supplements to help me … Gaba, Turmeric, Magnesium, Vitamin C, Omega 3 Oil, Vitamin D, 5-HTP, Selenium, 6 drops of Cats Claw in water, and .25mg of Clonazepam. I eat some dinner with the family, get cleaned up, and then relax on the couch with a small cup of fresh coffee. I send a contract to a customer and deposit a check online.

Now I’m typing this blog. I feel decent right now. Definitely much much better than I was this morning. I’m extremely grateful for the respite. I’m also extremely grateful for what I was able to accomplish at work today. At times, the pain felt unbearable, but God helped me through.

I did it!

Thank You, Lord.

So that’s the latest with me. Still battling. One day at a time.

Time to relax and watch some TV. Tomorrow I’m back at it … more ceilings to paint.

Battling with you,

Jason

Jason T. George is not a medical professional. The content of BattlingLyme.com is for informational purposes only and is not intended to substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, and treatment. Always seek the advice of your physician or other qualified health provider with any questions or concerns you may have regarding a medical condition. Never disregard professional medical advice or delay in seeking it because of something you have read, seen, or heard from Jason T. George.

You have to take action in order to heal!

This morning has been so very difficult … nausea, left lower abdomen pain, headache, brain fog, anxiety, fatigue, muscle twitching, and just that overall yuck/sick feeling. I did my best to push through it and accomplish a few items on my to-do list …

  • Began my day reading some helpful words from Charles Spurgeon and Scripture.
  • Took time to pray and journal.
  • Went to the paint store and picked up supplies for this week’s paint job.
  • Went to the UPS store and mailed in my SIBO test kit.
  • Went to the grocery store to get a few organic food items I was out of.
  • Cleaned all my paint equipment for this week’s paint job.
  • Booked appointment with my Lyme Specialist for next week.
  • Booked appointment with my Neurologist for next week.
  • Checked on a friend with Lyme who was suffering really really really bad yesterday.

It’s now 12pm. I had to stop everything and just sit and rest my body. In about 30-minutes, I’ll try to accomplish some more on my to-do list. The level of pain I endured this morning would make the average person stop everything and rush to the E.R. I’m not being overly dramatic. It was that bad. I’m learning to function through it when it gets that bad. It’s not easy. Believe me … a big part of me wanted to go to the E.R. but I’ve been there, done that, and they do absolutely nothing to help me. The last time I went to the E.R. they checked my blood pressure, resting heart rate, bloodwork, and ran an ECG. The doc told me that my test results are “perfect” and that I should follow-up with the Lyme Specialist I’m seeing. 🙄 “Frustrating” is not even the word!

When the pain gets really bad like it was this morning, it definitely forces me to pray more and I literally have to talk myself through it … “It’ll calm down, Jason. Just give it time. You’ve been here before. Stay calm. Stay positive. God is with you.”

There were a few moments this morning where I definitely felt overwhelmed with all of it. I never thought I’d be dealing with Lyme Disease for this long. Never. But I realize that wallowing or complaining about it does me no good. All I can do is keep battling for my health and that means I have to be proactive …

  • Keep listening to health podcasts and reading books and articles on the subject.
  • Keep meeting with my therapist.
  • Go back to my Lyme Specialist for more testing, treatment, and a new supply of supplements, meds, etc.
  • Keep taking my vitamins, supplements, and meds even when they make me feel worse.
  • Keep detoxing daily.
  • Keep on praying and trusting God to get me through this.
  • Keep helping other Lyme fighters.

I can’t just sit and do nothing. Nor can I just sit and hope that tomorrow will be a better day. I have to take action in order to heal. That’s how it works.

Here’s a little motivational mantra I often say to myself …

Pain is my friend. Heaven is my home. This is the only Hell I’ll ever know. God is with me. Never quit!

So that’s the latest with me and my on-going battle with Lyme Disease.

Battling with you,

Jason

Jason T. George is not a medical professional. The content of BattlingLyme.com is for informational purposes only and is not intended to substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, and treatment. Always seek the advice of your physician or other qualified health provider with any questions or concerns you may have regarding a medical condition. Never disregard professional medical advice or delay in seeking it because of something you have read, seen, or heard from Jason T. George.

How I Deal with Morning Anxiety!

Mornings are often difficult. Lately I wake up and the first thing I feel (along with some sort of physical pain) is anxiety wanting to ruin things. I know many of you deal with the same. Here are a few things I do that help ….

#1. Remember that Cortisol levels are at their highest in the mornings. So relax, it will eventually die down.

#2. Don’t lay in bed and ponder all the “What if” thoughts. Just get up and move into the day.

#3. Drink a glass of filtered water with lemon. Hydrate. Hydrate. Hydrate.

#4. Eat a little something. For me it’s usually just a banana. I can’t tolerate much more than that when I first wake up.

#5. Enjoy some hot tea or a little coffee (if you can tolerate it) while you read some positive/encouraging truth (I recommend Scripture but to each their own). I also do some praying or journaling. It helps me.

#6. Don’t start off the day googling symptoms or “cures” or “treatments” … in fact, I think it’s better to just stay away from all devices/media for the first 30 minutes of your day.

#7. Do some stretching for like 5 minutes.

#8. Don’t give that symptom or pain the attention it wants. Acknowledge it and move on with your day … “Oh, my chest hurts again and it makes me feel a little nervous. Oh well, I’ve already had tests and scans done on my heart and lungs. They were all normal. This is just part of my Lyme struggle or it’s just anxiety related.”

#9. Do some sort of exercise even if only for 5 minutes. Get your body moving and release those endorphins.

#10. Know you’re not alone in what you’re going through. At the very same time in the morning that you’re feeling it, there are so many of us feeling it too. Hang in there. Don’t quit. If it’s getting overwhelming, talk to a good friend who gets it or a therapist. I have to do it regularly.

Battling with you,

Jason

I’m not a medical professional. The content of BattlingLyme.com is for informational purposes only. The content is not intended to substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, and treatment. Always seek the advice of your physician or other qualified health provider with any questions or concerns you may have regarding a medical condition. Never disregard professional medical advice or delay in seeking it because of something you have read on BattlingLyme.com

Life’s Not Fair!

I recently heard a super frustrated person say, “Life’s not fair!” 

That person is spot on. Life’s not fair. And we must stop expecting it to be fair because that’s not reality. That’s actually a distorted view of the human condition (see John 16:33). The sooner we accept this reality (that life’s not fair), the better off we’ll be in overcoming pain, suffering, opposition, and disappointment. No one gets a free pass on those things. No one. It’s only a matter of time until life knocks you down and kicks you in the face repeatedly.

Many of us are under the illusion that we’re in control of so many things in life, but the truth is … we have little to no control over a large portion of what happens to us. The only thing we truly have control over is our response to what happens to us! 

Holocaust survivor, Viktor E. Frankl, says it best, “Forces beyond your control can take away everything you possess except one thing, your freedom to choose how you will respond to the situation … The one thing you can’t take away from me is the way I choose to respond to what you do to me. The last of one’s freedoms is to choose one’s attitude in any given circumstance.” 

If you’ve never read his book, Man’s Search for Meaning, you need to. If you don’t like reading, then get the audio book. It’s one of the most insightful and inspiring books I’ve ever read.

Take a few moments and really ponder his words … “Forces beyond your control can take away everything you possess except one thing, your freedom to choose how you will respond to the situation … The one thing you can’t take away from me is the way I choose to respond to what you do to me. The last of one’s freedoms is to choose one’s attitude in any given circumstance.”

Those words are powerful because of who wrote them. Frankl is not a mere philosopher or some sort of self-help guru who gave a TED Talk. He’s a man who courageously survived multiple Nazi concentration camps. From personal experience, he knew the dark depths of pain and suffering in ways that most of us never will (I’m telling you, read the book).

I’ve said it numerous times, but it’s worth saying again because so many of us need the reminder (including myself) … At times, life is going to suck (really bad)! That’s reality, and I believe the best thing we can do with that reality is embrace the suck, trust God through it, and make the most of it.

What good does all the fear, anxiety, anger, bitterness, envy, and complaining over life’s “unfairness” do for us? In my experience, it makes our situation worse. Over the last few years, when I’ve responded to my pain and suffering with fear, anxiety, anger, bitterness, envy, and/or complaining … it’s totally made me feel worse (mentally, emotionally, and even physically). It’s so easy to go down that rabbit hole. I hate it.

On the other hand, when I choose to do the unnatural thing and embrace the suck, trust God through it, and make the most of it … there’s an inner peace that can mysteriously show up. Don’t misunderstand me … my pain and problems don’t magically disappear when I embrace the suck, trust God through it, and make the most of it. I’m just saying that there have been times that I’ve experienced an inner peace when I’ve done those three things. It’s like I go from drowning in the crashing waves to riding them.

I recently experienced this mysterious inner peace when I was enjoying an evening on my bathroom floor (sarcasm). I was actually moaning in pain and considering heading to the ER. My anxiety was majorly elevated because of unresolved abdominal and rib pain that’s been my thorn in the flesh for over two months now. My Lyme Doc says it could be the result of a parasitic infection known as Babesia. Or it could be another type of parasite? Or it could be the fact that we are aggressively treating Lyme Disease with some hardcore homeopathic meds that can cause painful “herx reactions.” Who the heck knows?

All I do know is that in that moment on the bathroom floor, I chose to embrace the suck, trust God through it, and make the most of it. I began thanking God for every good and painful thing in my life that I could think of and I told Him that I trust Him through this pain. I then reminded myself that no matter what happens to me, I’m eternally secure in His omnipotent hands (see John 10:28-29). Then I began praying for several of my friends who are also physically and mentally suffering from Lyme Disease and co-infections (Sam, Dennis, Taco, and Hannah). I then decided to text two of them to see how they were doing. That’s what I mean by making the most of the suck. I turned my suck (pain and suffering) into something good.

It’s weird how it works, but when I get the attention off of my pain and suffering and I check on someone else who is suffering, it reduces my emotional pain and can even ease my physical pain. My chronic pain and suffering has definitely made me a more compassionate person (this is something I have majorly lacked in my Christian life).

Before you go thinking, “Wow, what a super saint Jason is!” Don’t. Because I’m not. Showing genuine concern and compassion without any selfish motive is not how I typically roll. I’m not as godly as I have often portrayed myself. Over the last year, I have become painfully aware of this fact.

Here’s some hardcore truth about me … negative, discouraging, and dark thoughts often invade my mind when I’m in the midst of pain and suffering, and sometimes they win the battle. I don’t always think “positive” or “godly” thoughts when all Hell is breaking loose. But let’s get real … no one does! It’s taken me a long time, but I’m slowly learning to let my negative, discouraging, and dark thoughts come and go. I don’t have to allow them to become permanent fixtures in my mind. God has given me the power to replace them with better thoughts (see Philippians 4:8 and 4:13). It’s not always easy. It doesn’t come natural. I have to work at it continually.

One last thing that I’ve been learning that I wanted to share with you is that I’m also really trying to stop expecting everyone to treat me the way that I want to be treated. That’s also a distorted view of the human condition. The Master simply tells us to treat others the way that we want them to treat us (see Matthew 7:12). That’s the code we’re supposed to live by. Just do that and expect nothing in return. Sounds so simple, but it’s not. I’ve really been trying to lower my expectations of how people should treat me (even with my family and friends). I believe that’s going to help my life go a whole lot better. Just focus on treating them the way I want to be treated without expecting anything in return. Period.

That’s all I got for now. Enjoy your weekend.

Battling with you,

Jason

Learning to Live with Chronic Pain!

Today was hard. Very hard. It was one of those days where I had to convince myself to NOT go to the Emergency Room. Like many of you reading this, daily I’m in pain … and my pain migrates. That means one week it can be head pain. The next week it can be rib pain. The week after that it can be abdominal pain. It can even change hour to hour. In my battle against late-stage lyme disease (and all the co-infections that came with it), I endure all sorts of annoying pains … joints, muscles, head, face, neck, ribs, spine, stomach, intestines, throat, lungs, heart, and ears (I probably left something out). It’s been crazy!

For the last few years, I’ve been doing all I can to heal from this horrible disease and rid my life of the chronic pain it brings me. Like many of you, there’ve been countless doctor visits, specialists, tests, meds, vitamins, supplements, herbs, essential oils, chiropractors, lyme specialists, acupuncture, massage therapy, infrared sauna, epsom salt baths, heating pads, CBD oil, dietary changes, prayer, meditation, repeat … AHHHHHH!!!!!

And guess what?

I’m still in pain.

I’m in pain right now as I type this.

Every single day I’m enduring some sort of physical pain … and there can also be mental pain. For instances, lately, my anxiety has dramatically increased. Yesterday it flared up for no reason as I sat talking with a friend and his wife at their kitchen table. Thankfully, I contained it. They didn’t even know, but I left their home super frustrated over it.

The increase in anxiety could be the result of the new treatment protocol I’m on … it can cause severe herx reactions (I’m currently working through the DesBio Babesia Treatment).

I was warned that this treatment gets rough with vials 2 thru 4, and I just recently finished vial #4 (ugh!). I’m also taking other supplements, herbs, and essential oils that can also cause a herx reaction. Heck, who knows? Maybe my anxiety has dramatically increased just because I’ve been feeling overwhelmed with all of it? I thought I’d be healed by now, but I’m not and it’s hard to accept and make the best of it.

Somedays I’m okay with it, but somedays … it does overwhelm me, and I get really frustrated, discouraged, and anxious. Today was another one of those days. I’m just being real with you. Chronic pain gets old. You just want relief. You just want to feel “normal” again. I totally understand that life in this broken world is full of pain … we get sick … we break a bone … we lose a loved one … we get the blues … I get that! But chronic pain is infinitely different. Chronic pain just won’t go away (at least, not yet). It greets me when I wake up in the morning and it tucks me in at night. It’s my constant companion, and I’m trying to figure out how to be the best version of me through all of it.

Daily I pray for God’s help and healing. Not just for myself, but for several of my friends who are also suffering with Lyme Disease and various co-infections. When you don’t see God answering your prayers, you begin thinking He’s not listening or maybe He’s just flat out ignoring you. I’ve battled all those thoughts/feelings. Nevertheless, I choose to trust Him through this. Faith is often a fight. Don’t let anyone convince you otherwise.

That’s all I got in me for now. I need to go rest.

Battling with you,

Jason