Painting Ceilings in Major Pain!

Some days I don’t know how I’m going to make it through. Today was one of those days. I woke up around 6am, and immediately I was hit with major nausea. If I remain in bed, I just focus on it. So I get up, use the bathroom, drink a glass of water, and lay on the couch while the coffee brews. As I lay on the couch, the left side of my face begins to twitch. I feel miserable and I have a paint job today and it’s nothing but ceiling painting. That’s some of the hardest painting you can do. It strains your neck and back for hours on end. Oh well, no use in complaining.

The coffee is ready. I pour myself a cup, sip on it slowly, and eat 1/2 of a gluten-free breakfast bar. That’s about all my stomach can tolerate. For my morning meditation … I read Psalm 103, write some notes in my journal, and spend some time in prayer. Here’s what I wrote in my journal …

“Abba, I’m claiming Psalm 103 where You say … You forgive all my iniquity – You heal all my diseases – You redeem my life from the pit – You crown me with steadfast love and mercy – You satisfy me with good – You renew my youth like the eagles.”

In my journal, I question God, “Why would You have such words in Scripture if they are not there to claim when your children are in the pit of pain and despair?”

I go on and read Psalm 103:13 … As a father shows compassion to his children, so the Lord shows compassion to those who fear Him. For He knows our frame. He remembers that we are dust.

I beg God to fulfill this verse in my life, and then tell Him, “Today I have a paint job here in the neighborhood. I need Your help, Lord. I can’t do this without You. That’s how sick I’ve felt lately. I don’t have the strength to do this on my own. You have strengthened me before and I trust You will do it again. In Jesus mighty name, amen.”

After that, I get up, get dressed for work, load up the truck, and kiss my wife goodbye. I stop by the paint store to pick up some supplies. I’m still nauseous and having bad left abdomen pain. My anxiety is also messing with me. I try not to focus on it. I get to the job by 8:30am. I’m in major pain all morning as I work. MAJOR PAIN! Again, I want to go to the E.R. and get help, but it’s pointless so I get it out of my mind. “This will pass Jason. Hang in there.”

At 11:30am, I take a break for lunch and head to Chipotle. I order a burrito bowl … just white rice, double chicken, and some guac. My stomach typically does okay with those three items. I still feel nauseous with left abdomen pain, major fatigue, and malaise. After eating, I put my seat back in my work truck and rest for about 20 minutes. I end up texting with one of my friends who is battling brain cancer.

I’m back on the job by 1pm. Now my upper stomach aches. It feels bloated like it needs to release some gas. 20 minutes later I finally begin belching and it releases the pressure. “Why is my stomach so jacked up the last few months?” I drunk a little bit of Starbucks coffee as I continued painting the ceilings. Thankfully, today I didn’t really deal with one of my nasty headaches that brings on horrible brain fog. As the afternoon progressed, my symptoms began to reduce. Thank God! I worked til 4:30pm and then packed up. I have to be careful not to overdo it.

I came home, put my equipment away, and just laid on the floor with the dogs for 30-minutes. They help me feel relaxed. My neck and mid-back are extremely sore. I took some meds and supplements to help me … Gaba, Turmeric, Magnesium, Vitamin C, Omega 3 Oil, Vitamin D, 5-HTP, Selenium, 6 drops of Cats Claw in water, and .25mg of Clonazepam. I eat some dinner with the family, get cleaned up, and then relax on the couch with a small cup of fresh coffee. I send a contract to a customer and deposit a check online.

Now I’m typing this blog. I feel decent right now. Definitely much much better than I was this morning. I’m extremely grateful for the respite. I’m also extremely grateful for what I was able to accomplish at work today. At times, the pain felt unbearable, but God helped me through.

I did it!

Thank You, Lord.

So that’s the latest with me. Still battling. One day at a time.

Time to relax and watch some TV. Tomorrow I’m back at it … more ceilings to paint.

Battling with you,

Jason

Jason T. George is not a medical professional. The content of BattlingLyme.com is for informational purposes only and is not intended to substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, and treatment. Always seek the advice of your physician or other qualified health provider with any questions or concerns you may have regarding a medical condition. Never disregard professional medical advice or delay in seeking it because of something you have read, seen, or heard from Jason T. George.

Stop Feeling Sorry for Yourself and Go Do the Opposite of What You “Feel” Like Doing!

This morning I woke with left-sided chest pain, left-sided lower abdomen pain, and mild stress/anxiety feelings.This has been my typical morning for several weeks now. With late-stage Lyme Disease and the various co-infections, my symptoms vary. They come and go and then I welcome some new symptoms. Next month it could be neck pain, headaches, and air hunger. You never know.

Overall, I slept well. After waking, I came down stairs, had a small cup of black coffee, and talked with my wife. She’s always so happy in the morning. I admire that about her. I tried not to focus on my increasing pain. I just wanted to enjoy my coffee and conversation with my wife.

I’ve recently begun taking some new homeopathic meds (DesBio Borrelia-Babesia Treatment). I’ve been warned by many who’ve taken it that it often makes you feel worse before you feel better. They’ve encouraged me to stay the course even when it feels like I’m walking through Hell!

At 8:29am, I took some Tylenol for my chest pain. It was annoying and worrying me. I had to tell myself … “You’ve had a recent EKG, blood work, etc. Your heart is healthy. It’s just the Babesia in your rib cage flaring up. Relax.”

At 9am, I had enough of sitting on the couch. I was focusing way too much on my pain, so I got up … took my daily meds, supplements, and essential oils … then put on my workout clothes to go for a 2-mile walk around my neighborhood. Everything in me wanted to focus on my chest and abdomen pain. My mind wanted to run rampant with all the What-if thoughts and then try to figure out all the possible solutions to stop my pain with the help of Dr. Google.

I walked outside and took a deep breath and intentionally changed the channel of my mind. As I walked, I focused on the beauty of the brightly colored leaves that were falling from the trees. This has always been my favorite time of year. A chilly breeze was at my back and the warm sun was at my face. “Feel it Jason. Enjoy it.” I also took in all the pleasant smells and the sound of neighbors blowing their leaves.

Then I thought of the millions of people around the world who are suffering far far worse than myself … who can’t go for a walk around their neighborhood on a beautiful fall day. Yes, I definitely have some things wrong with my body, but I also have many things that are right … and I have much to be thankful for. Suddenly, my mind fights against that, “Is this brisk walk really such a good idea with how you’re feeling? Shouldn’t you be resting? This is just going to make you feel worse for the rest of the day!”

I’m learning to simply allow those kind of negative/discouraging thoughts to come and go. I chose not to campout there. Negative/discouraging thoughts and emotions are not indestructible fortresses in your life. Let them come and let them go. Just move on with your day and they’ll pass. Don’t give them the attention they desire.

It was a good walk on a beautiful fall day, and I actually felt better for doing it (physically and emotionally). I believe the physical exertion helped release some much needed endorphins. My chest pain mysteriously vanished and my abdomen pain reduced. I know pain of some sort will return, but oh well.

So what did I learn today?

#1 … That sitting still, worrying, and feeling sorry for myself only makes me feel worse.

#2 … That to feel better, I often have to do the complete opposite of what I “feel” like doing.

This is my life right now … the Lyme-Life … and I’m learning how to make the most of it!

Thanks for taking time to read this. Your questions and comments are welcomed. I hope in some way that this encourages you in whatever battle with pain/suffering that you may be facing. You’re not alone. So don’t lose hope and never give up!

Battling with you,

Jason

I’m not a medical professional. The content of BattlingLyme.com is for informational purposes only. The content is not intended to substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, and treatment. Always seek the advice of your physician or other qualified health provider with any questions or concerns you may have regarding a medical condition. Never disregard professional medical advice or delay in seeking it because of something you have read on BattlingLyme.com