I’m Not a Victim. I’m a Warrior!

Wednesday, Feb. 3, 2021 – 8pm … 


I cannot even begin to put into words how utterly miserable I felt today. It wasn’t just the physical pain/symptoms that crushed me into dust. It was also the heaviness of my brain fog and the unsettling anxiety that came with it. Mentally I lost my ability to properly comprehend and organize information. I was finishing recording a podcast episode when I had to stop everything. 


Looking at the screen hurt. 


Reading hurt. 


Talking hurt. 


Listening hurt. 


Even praying in my head hurt. 


I was hit with a severe herxheimer reaction. 


A herxheimer reaction (AKA = “herx”) is an adverse response to toxins released by bacteria killed by your antibiotic or herbal treatment. With a herx … you’re basically killing Lyme spirochetes (or co-infections or parasites) faster than your body can eliminate them. The accumulation of all the toxins inside of your body can make your symptoms skyrocket until your body can eliminate all of that nasty junk through detoxing methods. Today’s herx was one of my worst. I was MISERABLE people!


My friends who also battle Lyme Disease (along with other tick-born co-infections and/or parasites) say that a severe herxeimer reaction can feel like death. They’re not being overly dramatic. Some of them have given birth to children and some of them have battled through cancer, and they’ve told me that the pain of Lyme Disease is worse … and (in my experience) the worst pain that Lyme Disease can throw at you is the pain of a severe herxheimer reaction. I have often used the phrase, “I feel like DEATH right now.” I don’t know how else to describe it. With a herx, symptoms can vary from person to person. For me, today’s herx brought on a yuck/flu-like feeling, migraine, brain fog, trouble articulating, chills, shakes, muscle twitching, fatigue, and a weird kind of tense/anxious feeling throughout my body.


A few years ago, I heard that the #1 cause of death related to Lyme Disease is suicide, and I can believe it. Overwhelmed, exhausted, and debilitated with chronic pain, mental anguish, and years of expensive treatments that don’t seem to work … people with late-stage chronic Lyme Disease completely lose the will to live because they believe that their life will never get better. They believe the lie that death must be better than the life their living. Often times they also believe that their death will alleviate their family of the burden that they believe they’ve become. 

This is what late-stage chronic Lyme Disease can do to a person who was once full of life, energy, love, joy, peace, and positivity. It’s sad. I hate it. It’s one of the most complex, misunderstood, and under-diagnosed diseases in the world. The majority of those in the Medical Community are of no help to those of us with late-stage chronic Lyme Disease. Most in the Medical Community won’t even recognize late-stage chronic Lyme Disease as a diagnosis and of course that means that your medical insurance won’t cover the treatments you desperately need. If you want to get well, it’s all out of pocket. You’re on your own, and it’s a long and difficult battle. There are no quick-fix, short-cuts, or magic pills. 


For me personally, I know that if I did not have a personal relationship with God through my faith in the Lord Jesus Christ … and if I did not have the love, support, and prayers of my wife, friends, and other Lyme Warriors … I don’t believe I’d make it. Most likely, I’d turn to illegal drugs to try and cope, and who knows what that would lead to … definitely not anything positive.


Over the past year, I’ve been learning how to better manage the horrible days (like today). Your mental game is a HUGE part of your personal survival, healing, and growth. On my worst days, I now remind myself that not everyday is as bad as today. I remind myself that over the years of battling chronic late-stage Lyme Disease there have been some good days with some amazing pain-free moments. There have been incredible moments of peace, joy, comfort, and laughter in this long and agonizing battle … and some incredible friendships have been formed, and some old friendships have been strengthened because of it. On my worst days … in my worst moments … I have to make myself mentally zoom-out of the moment and put it in proper perspective of the big picture. Today, during my very worst moment, I told myself, “Yes, this moment right here and right now is HORRIBLE, but not every day or every moment is like this. It’s just a severe herxheimer reaction, Jason. It’ll eventually pass. The clouds will part. The waves will die down. The sun will shine. You’ve made it through before. You’ll make it through again. You always make it through because you’re not a victim. You’re a warrior!”


YOU’RE NOT A VICTIM. YOU’RE A WARRIOR!


I often have to remind myself of that truth.


If you believe you’re a victim and you allow yourself to fall in the deep dark pit of self-pity, you’re body, mind, and spirit are never going to heal and grow. I’m convinced that you have to develop a warrior’s mentality to succeed at anything in this broken world. 
As I type this, I’m feeling much better than I was earlier today.


The clouds have parted. The waves have died down. The sun is shining. I made it through.I always make it through.Because I’m not a victim. I’m a warrior!I hope that in some way this encourages you in whatever battle you may be facing right now. Remember … when it gets really bad … zoom-out of the moment and put it in proper perspective of the big picture. Talk yourself through it. Do not allow a victim-mentality to form. Do not allow yourself to fall into the deep dark pit of self-pity. Develop a warrior’s mentality. Keep learning how to overcome your enemy. Keep battling-on and don’t forget to help others along the way.

*Also, for those of you who are interested, here is my updated/current treatment protocol …

1 Capsule of Vital Plan’s Brain Boost (Lion’s Mane, Cat’s Claw, Bacon, Ashwagandha, Ginkgo Biloba).

1 Capsule of Vital Plan’s Mitochondrial Support (Vit. C, Vit. E, L-Glutathione, NAC, Alpha Lipoic Acid, CoQ10, Mixed Tocopherols).

1 Capsule of Vital Plan’s Prevention Plus (Multiple Vitamins and Supplements).

1/2 Capsule of Vital Plan’s Adaptogen Recovery (Chinese Skullcap, Cordyceps, Reishi Mushroom, Rehmannia).

2 Capsules of Migratone.

Omega 3 Fish Oil.

Digestive Enzymes with Prebiotics and Probiotics.

Vitamin D (5000 IU).

Magnesium.

Vitamin C .

CBD Oil (50mg).

Venlaflaxine ER 75mg.

Burbur Pinella (20 drops in water as needed for brain fog).

Trazodone 100mg before bed.

Chlorella (for binding/detoxing).

Anti-Parasite Essential Oils.

Cellcore BioMolecular Oxygen.

4 Sprays of ACZ Nano Extra Strength (for detoxing and immune support).

Activate Charcoal (as needed for binding/detoxing).

Ibuprofen 800mg (as needed for migraines).

Liposomal Glutathione.

Clonazepam .12mg to .25mg (as needed, but I try to use CBD instead).

CBD Clinic – Pain Relief Ointment on Sore Muscles/Joints.

Organic Coffee Enemas (as needed for detoxing).

Epsom Salt Baths (at least every other day for detoxing).

Alka Seltzer Gold with Lemon Water (for herxing)

Essential Oil Roller (Frankincense, Copaiba, Chamomile, Lavender, Eucalyptus) for Migraine Relief … I put on forehead, temples, behind ears, and on neck.

Daily Scripture Reading.

Daily Prayer and Meditation.

Daily Journaling.

Weekly Men’s Support Group via Zoom.

Weekly listen to Helpful Podcast or Audio Books.

Weekly listen to Encouraging Music.

Text/Talk to my wife, a friend, a counselor, a fellow Lyme-Warrior when I’m super anxious, depressed, discouraged, or just overwhelmed with all of it.

Daily Exercise/Movement (Nothing intense. Yesterday I could only do a 3/4 mile walk with my dog).

7 to 8 hours of sleep per night.

At lunch time I lay down on the floor and rest for about 20 to 30 minutes. I can never fall asleep so I just rest deeply, pray, mediate, etc.

I eat 95% Organic Food … I’m also Gluten Free, Dairy Free, Very Very Very Little Sugar, and no Artificial Sweeteners … I also avoid Pork and Raw Sushi (potential for parasites with those) … oh, and I also avoid processed foods, beans, most nuts, nightshades, potato chips and corn chips.

Fresh Organic Celery Juice (several times per week).

Currently trying out DNRS (Dynamic Neural Retraining System).

Chiropractor – At least once per month.

FYI … I just stopped taking Melia Supreme, Morinda Supreme, and Mimosa Supreme. I was using those powerful herbal supplements to target parasites, but I need a break from them after this latest herx! You have to listen to your body. Sometimes you need to pulse, break, reduce dosage, whatever.

FYI … I was doing Infrared Sauna at least once per week at a local Spa. That got shutdown due to COVID. I’m going to purchase my own infrared sauna soon. I need to be sweating more for proper detoxing and the heat feels amazing. I’m purchasing a Sunlighten.

My dog Remi and I on a recent 2-mile hike.

Jason T. George is not a medical professional. The content of BattlingLyme.com is for informational purposes only and is not intended to substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, and treatment. Always seek the advice of your physician or other qualified health provider with any questions or concerns you may have regarding a medical condition. Never disregard professional medical advice or delay in seeking it because of something you have read, seen, or heard from Jason T. George.

Checking-In … 1-14-21

What do I have to be thankful for?

  • I had peace last night while laying in bed with my dog listening to worship music. Even in the midst of my pain, I had peace in my heart.
  • My dog made me smile and laugh a little.
  • I slept well last night.
  • God’s love for me never ceases, nor changes.
  • This suffering that I’m enduring, it’s a trial – it will pass – I will make it through – God is with me through all of it.

What is my current protocol?

  • Multi Vitamin
  • D-3
  • Vitamin C
  • Zinc
  • Omega 3 Fish Oil
  • Turmeric Curcumin
  • Magnesium
  • Migratone with COQ10
  • Physica HPA (Axis) LF
  • Digestive Enzymes with pre and probiotics
  • Prescription Venlaflaxine – 75mg
  • ACZ Nano Extra Strength – Advanced Cellular Zeolite
  • Burbur Pinella (20 drops)
  • BLt – Targeted Microbial Support (2 to 3 drops right now)
  • Immusist (2 to 3 drops right now)
  • Molecular Oxygen (2 to 3 drops right now)
  • Mimosa Supreme (1 day a week)
  • Melia Supreme (2 days a week)
  • Morinda Supreme (2 days a week)
  • Prescription Clonazepam .15mg as needed
  • Nuun – Immunity Support Tablets
  • Epsom Salt Baths daily for detox
  • Organic Coffee Enema at least ever other day (with essential oil mix and molecular oxygen) for detox
  • Prescription 800mg Ibuprofen (as needed – I try not to take this everyday)
  • Chlorella
  • DesBio Comprehensive Detox Kit
  • Eat organic.
  • Avoid dairy, gluten, soy, legumes, corn, and sugar.
  • Avoid artificial sweeteners and processed foods.
  • Avoid showers.
  • Lite movement/exercise.
  • Scripture/Prayer/Meditation/Worship – daily
  • Topical essential oil mix for headaches

Currently reading It’s Not Supposed To Be This Way by Lysa Terkeurst.

This morning I have a tightness/pressure in my forehead with some brain fog and an overall feeling of malaise/weakness/fatigue. Some nausea plagues me too. Today I’m trying to NOT give attention to my symptoms. Just going to move on past them and try to stay positive and grateful. I have a lot of office work to get done today.

“The only easy day was yesterday.” – Navy SEALS Motto

“If you’re going through Hell, keep going!” – Winston Churchill.

“I will never leave you, nor forsake you.” – God

Jason T. George is not a medical professional. The content of BattlingLyme.com is for informational purposes only and is not intended to substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, and treatment. Always seek the advice of your physician or other qualified health provider with any questions or concerns you may have regarding a medical condition. Never disregard professional medical advice or delay in seeking it because of something you have read, seen, or heard from Jason T. George.

Today Sucks

Today sucks.

I’ve been trying my best to work at my desk and everything is an absolute struggle. At one point, I just laid on the floor in agony … Stomach pain. Rib pain. Nausea. Fatigue. Pounding headache. Brain fog. Flu-like feeling. Stress/anxiety.

Am I ever going to get better?

What am I doing wrong?

Why won’t my body heal from this?

Where are You, God?

Why do You sit passively by and allowing me to suffer like this for so long?

When do You plan on answering my prayers for healing?

Two Good Weeks and then Wham!

It’s been a while since I’ve blogged about my Lyme battle, and today is a good day to do that. I’m at home, trying to finish-up some bookkeeping and filing for my business, but that’s not going so well because this morning I feel like a Mac truck ran me over. Right now it’s difficult for me to do anything productive. Even thinking hurts. I’m experiencing wave after wave of head pressure, nausea, brain fog, fatigue, chest pain, back pain, shoulder pain, arm pain, and that nasty flu-like YUCK feeling. I probably left something out. It’s just not a good day.

It’s incredibly frustrating to me because a few weeks ago I was doing so much better …

On March 12, I went back to see my Lyme Specialist, Greg Lee at The Lyme Research and Healing Center in Frederick, MD. We did about four hours of scans/tests, and the results indicated that I have an infection in my spinal fluid and it’s causing inflammation … looks like parasites (specifically Tapeworms). I also have other “issues” going on but that was the big one that needs immediate attention.

After the scan/testing, we did some acupuncture, cupping, and hydrogen therapy. Then Greg laid out a whole new treatment protocol of herbal remedies, supplements, and essential oils. All of this was extremely costly (around $2k … and of course, insurance didn’t cover a dime). It’s hard for me to spend that kind of money on myself, but I really had no choice. I wasn’t making any real progress self-treating and I have to get healthy for my family, friends, work, ministry, etc.

What price do you put on your personal health?

After beginning the new protocol back in mid March, I actually began feeling major improvements in my overall health. I was thrilled! I thought to myself, “Finally, something is working! Thank You God!” My wife and kids even noticed a difference in me and some of my friends began telling me how much healthier I looked.

I enjoyed two of the best weeks I’ve had in well over a year … less brain fog, nausea, intestinal pain, headaches, joint pains, facial twitching, anxiety, etc. I was totally feeling more like my “normal self.” It was awesome … and then … WHAM!I got knocked down (again)!

Over the last two weeks, I’ve been experiencing some sort of major flare-up. It’s bad … and I have no idea what I’ve done done to trigger this. The last several days have especially been bad. I talked with some friends who’ve battled late-stage Lyme Disease much longer than me, and they told me that what I’m experiencing is totally normal when you’re on the road to recovery. I guess that’s good news, but not very comforting when you feel like death is at the door.

It’s a hellacious battle to stay positive and hopeful when suffering with various chronic issues/pain. This morning I made myself get out of the house and go for a two-mile walk in my neighborhood. I prayed as I walked. The warm sun felt good. If I didn’t have God in my life and a few good friends, I don’t know where I’d be. It would NOT be a good place. Many times you feel so utterly alone in this battle with late-stage Lyme Disease and chronic pain. The worst thing you can do is bottle it all up and isolate. God and good friends are crucial.

So yes, once again, I’ve been knocked down, but I’m not knocked out. I will rise … and I will press on … doing whatever it takes to heal my body from this monster.

You have to do the same. Remember, it’s always too soon to give up. Lean hard on God and a few good friends. Reach out to a professional therapist if you need to. Don’t bottle it up and isolate.

Battling with you,

Jason

The Roller Coaster of Lyme Disease!

Sunday, March 8, 2020 – 10:18AM …

As I type this, I am absolutely miserable. The last few days have been way worse than usual … symptoms have increased and intensified … headaches, neck pain, joint pain, nausea, loss of appetite, brain fog, anxiety, and debilitating fatigue (the kind where you feel like someone shot you with a tranquilizer). I keep telling myself, “You’ve been here before. You know what to do. Just ride the storm. This isn’t permanent. It’ll pass.”

Honestly … this gets so old! Lyme Disease is a roller coaster that I NEVER volunteered to be on and it won’t let me off!

Lyme Disease is a roller coaster that I NEVER volunteered to be on and it won’t let me off!

I loathe when I have a few decent days, and then plummet back down into the pit of misery. The few decent days always get my hopes up that I’m on the path to recovery, and then that hope eventually fades like a mirage in the desert. That’s what I mean by Lyme Disease being a roller coaster. It’s up and down. Recovery is not linear. If you have it, then you know what I’m talking about.

Yesterday I talked with a few of my Lyme friends about how I’m feeling. That always helps me. Bottling it up makes me irritable or anxious or depressed or all three of those. Many of my Lyme friends are also having a harder time than usual. My friend Jessica Donaldson believes it’s because of the “super moon” that is upon us.

I know that sounds cooky, but from my personal experience, I do believe there’s something to it. Over the last year, I’ve noticed that I typically feel worse during during a full moon or new moon.

But why? … What’s up with that?

Here’s one explanation that I came across that fits my situation …

Parasites. They are the main culprits for the flare-up. We may not like to think about it, but inside of our bodies, most of us have worms, unwanted parasites that we are not even aware of. If not addressed properly, a parasite infection can hinder the healing and it can even lead to other serious health problems. Around a full moon, not only the Lyme patients will feel worse, but also those who have parasites, because during this time, the parasites’ activity peaks, causing us, the host, to feel unwell. The parasites are active during the full moon too as it is their mating season. Every couple of weeks, the parasites and bacterias hatch and form new babies. To be more precise, the spirochetes have a reproductive cycle each 28-30 days, which coincides with the full moon cycle. The flare up is due to the fact that during this period of time the spirochetes are far more active. As for the co-infections, they have a 3 to 5 days cycle, which explains the ups and downs on the symptoms experienced by patients.

Source: https://a-zlyme.com/full-moon-and-lyme-disease/

On top of battling Lyme, I recently found out that I tested positive for SIBO (Small Intestinal Bacterial Overgrowth). Over the last 5 months that has been the main source of my excruciating left abdomen pain, increased headaches, increased brain fog, unusual looking diarrhea (I’ll spare you the pics), increased anxiety, loss of appetite, and major weight loss (30 pounds people).

To treat SIBO, I recently began taking two powerful homeopathic meds: Bacteria Tox and DysBiocide.

HOLY WATER BUFFALO! Dude, I ended up coming off of the Dysbiocide, because the combination was too much at once. It was causing some serious die-off (herx reaction). That … plus the super moon thing … I was praying for Jesus to come back immediately!

As I said at the beginning of this blog post, I am absolutely miserable right now, but trying to stay positive. It’s not easy during these times in the pit. For some guidance and encouragement in my battle with Lyme, I’ve been reading through the book, THE HEALER WITHIN by Holly Chameli. She has recovered from Chronic Lyme, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, and Autoimmune Disease. Yesterday, I highlighted this quote because I TOTALLY relate …

A chronic and debilitating illness can feel like being buried alive. You do not technically have a terminal disease, but you feel like you are in the midst of dying every single day. The losses are many. Obviously, the pain of feeling sick every day is enormous, but so too is the sense of total loss when you can no longer be the parent you once were, maintain a career, socialize with friends and family, or simply grocery shop. Yes, you are living, but you may feel dead inside. Keeping your head above water during the healing process is certainly challenging, but you must stay positive. How do you do this?

THE HEALER WITHING by Holly Chameli – Page 141.

She then goes on to give advice on how to stay positive … that’s the chapter I’m into right now. So I’ll have to get back to you.

2:38pm …

At lunch time, I finally got my butt off the couch, took 4 Advil for my head and neck pain, and then drove to the pharmacy to pick up a prescription for my SIBO. After that, I ate a burrito bowl from Chipotle (white rice, chicken, a little bit of mild salsa, and guac). About 30 minutes later, I began to feel some improvement.

Thank You, God

I went to Walmart and picked up a few needed items, and then hit Starbucks for a small coffee. Then I came home, cleaned up the kitchen, and vacuumed the house. Now I’m finishing up this blog post, then I’m going for a short walk in the neighborhood to soak up some sun. My brain fog has even cleared up. Again, thank You, God! I have been praying all day for some much needed relief. Not sure how long this will last.

Hang in there my Lyme friends. You are NOT alone in this battle. I know it is EXTREMELY difficult. I know there are days when you feel like you are going to have a complete breakdown or worse. Again, you are NOT alone. I encourage you to reach out to other Lyme friends or a Lyme Support Group or a Lyme Counselor/Therapist. I also encourage you to keep crying out to God and seek Him by reading the Bible. Lately, I keep meditating on Psalm 103 and praying through it. Check it out. It’s a good one.

Battling with you,

Jason

On Friday night, my wife and I went out on a long-overdue date. As you can probably tell from the pic, I was not feeling well, but did my best to focus on her.

Chronic Lyme Disease – 13 Things That Help Me Feel Better!

This past week was definitely a better week for me than the week before. Yes, my symptoms were still there, but they weren’t as intense. I was actually able to work on a paint job for 5 days. That is a tremendous answer to prayer. No, it was not a pain-free 5 days, but it was better than usual.

So what’s helping me feel better? …

1Diet/Nutrition … I’ve been maintaining a strict/healthy diet and that means less inflammation/pain. I avoid sugar, gluten, and dairy. I’ve also been avoiding fried foods, artificial sweeteners, vegetable oils, beans, and alcohol. I eat as organic as I possibly can. If I eat sugar, it’s less than 12g.

2Sleep … I’ve been consistently going to bed at a decent hour to make sure I’m getting plenty of uninterrupted sleep. Last night I was in bed at 9pm (on a Saturday night). I don’t even care. For me to have uninterrupted sleep, I sometimes have to sleep in the guest bedroom. I hate doing that as a married man, but uninterrupted sleep is absolutely vital to my health and ability to work my job which enable me to make money for my family’s needs and wants.

3Supplements … I’ve been extremely consistent with taking my vitamins, supplements, and meds. I take many of them 2 to 3 times per day … Vitamin C, Magnesium, Turmeric Curcumin, Vitamin D, Vitamin B-12, Omega 3 Fish Oil, Cordyceps, Ashwaganda, Lithium Synergy, 5-HTP, GABA, Cat’s Claw, Burbur Pinella, Resveratrol, L-Glutathione, Chlorella, Real NAD Plus, Feverview, and CoQ10.

4Hydrate … I literally drink about a gallon of water per day (Spring Water or Filtered or Alkaline).

5Avoiding Stress/Conflict … That means I avoid certain people, conversations, debates, arguments, etc. Even on social media. Especially on social media. You can have it. As for me, “Ain’t nobody got time for dat!”

6 Prayer … Every morning and throughout my day I’m constantly calling on God for healing, strength, energy, clarity of mind, peace, etc. Mornings are typically the roughest part of my day, and I often feel like there’s NO WAY I can possibly make it through my work day. Honestly, most people wouldn’t even go to work feeling the way that I do. I cling to Philippians 4:13 … “I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me.”

7Talk Therapy … I’ve recently talked with two different therapists/counselors who have personally battled Lyme Disease. They’re way further along the road to healing than I am. I also regularly talk with and listen to friends who are battling Lyme Disease. It really helps. Bottling things up and trying to face it on my own was making me feel much worse. Don’t isolate. Don’t bottle up.

8Frequent Breaks … I take extended lunch breaks to rest in my work truck after I eat lunch (a benefit of owning my own company). When I get home from work in the evening, I also lay on the floor for 30-minutes and allow my two dogs (Remi and Ruger) to sniff and lick all over me … then they typically nestle up beside me. I love it and need it.

9Bind and Detox … Several times a week I take Activated Charcoal tablets to bind-up toxins … and I also do hot epsom salt baths … and at least once per week, I go to the local spa for a 30-minute session in the infrared sauna.

10Don’t Overdo It … I push myself, but not too much … I’m learning to listen to my body and know my limits with this disease so I don’t overdo it. Like the other day … I was at work and I really wanted to finish an area that I was painting, but I could feel my brain fog coming on strong with a frontal headache. My lower left abdomen pain also began to increase. I knew right then and there it was time to clean-up, pack-up, and call it a day. My body was saying, “Enough! Time to rest!”

11Keep Learning … I’m constantly reading books, articles, and blogs … or listening to podcasts or audio books … that help me improve/heal physically, mentally, emotionally, and spiritually! Today I began reading The Healer Within by Holly Chameli. She’s recovered from Chronic Lyme, CFS, and Autuimmune Disease. Her story is inspiring me and giving me hope.

12Have a Yoda … I pay big bucks out of pocket (insurance won’t cover a dime) to see a top Lyme Disease Specialist who listens to me, runs various tests on me, advises me, and prescribes various holistic/naturopathic treatments that help heal me. His name is Greg Lee and he’s with the Lyme Research and Healing Center in Frederick, MD.

13Move … You have to keep physically active. That looks different for all of us depending upon what stage we’re at in the healing journey. If all you can do is walk out to your mailbox and walk back, do it. Then the next week, walk to your neighbor’s mailbox. Do some sort of physical activity and keep increasing it week by week, but don’t overdo it. There will be some days (or weeks) where you’re flaring-up or having a bad herx reaction, and all you need to do is rest/sleep/recover. Dude, I get it. Been there. Done that. Got the T-Shirt!

As I said, this past week was definitely a better week for me, but I realize that tomorrow I could wake-up and experience a major relapse. That’s how it goes sometimes. Nevertheless, I will continue to keep doing these 13 things in my battle to heal.

Battling With You,

Jason

Today my daughter Gabrielle and I took Remi to a local park to play and then we went to Starbucks for a treat. Watching her laugh at Remi while he lapped-up a pupacino was therapeutic.

Jason T. George is not a medical professional. The content of BattlingLyme.com is for informational purposes only and is not intended to substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, and treatment. Always seek the advice of your physician or other qualified health provider with any questions or concerns you may have regarding a medical condition. Never disregard professional medical advice or delay in seeking it because of something you have read, seen, or heard from Jason T. George.

A Better Day for Me!

Nausea and head pressure were messing with me this morning. I took Elle to school, cleaned up, and loaded up the truck for work. I had to go back and paint ceilings and then begin painting the trim … lots of trim (floor trim, chair rail, crown molding, etc.) I thought I’d be done with this job by the end of today. Wishful thinking. This job has been more work than I anticipated. I definitely underbid it. Oh well. Live and learn.

As I focused on painting, the less I focused on my pain, and that actually helped. By 12pm, I needed an extended lunch break to rest my body. My neck and mid-back were killing me. I drove to Chipotle … ate another burrito bowl of white rice, double chicken, and guac. Then I stopped and got a small Starbucks coffee. In the afternoon, I felt pretty good while painting, but by 4pm my body was telling me to stop for the day. I began having some head pressure with brain fog and my left abdomen began to ache. So I cleaned up and went home.

For dinner, I ate some broiled wild caught flounder with green beans and baked french fries. I took my meds, vitamins, and supplements … and now I’m chilling on the couch watching Netflix … a good documentary called The Magic Pill.

Today I found out that my recent stool test came back “normal.” I’m still waiting on the results from my SIBO test. Something has been wrong with my stomach and intestines for months and we can’t figure it out. At times, the pain has been absolutely excruciating.

Overall, it was a better day for me. Thank You, Lord.

Battling with you,

Jason

Painting Ceilings in Major Pain!

Some days I don’t know how I’m going to make it through. Today was one of those days. I woke up around 6am, and immediately I was hit with major nausea. If I remain in bed, I just focus on it. So I get up, use the bathroom, drink a glass of water, and lay on the couch while the coffee brews. As I lay on the couch, the left side of my face begins to twitch. I feel miserable and I have a paint job today and it’s nothing but ceiling painting. That’s some of the hardest painting you can do. It strains your neck and back for hours on end. Oh well, no use in complaining.

The coffee is ready. I pour myself a cup, sip on it slowly, and eat 1/2 of a gluten-free breakfast bar. That’s about all my stomach can tolerate. For my morning meditation … I read Psalm 103, write some notes in my journal, and spend some time in prayer. Here’s what I wrote in my journal …

“Abba, I’m claiming Psalm 103 where You say … You forgive all my iniquity – You heal all my diseases – You redeem my life from the pit – You crown me with steadfast love and mercy – You satisfy me with good – You renew my youth like the eagles.”

In my journal, I question God, “Why would You have such words in Scripture if they are not there to claim when your children are in the pit of pain and despair?”

I go on and read Psalm 103:13 … As a father shows compassion to his children, so the Lord shows compassion to those who fear Him. For He knows our frame. He remembers that we are dust.

I beg God to fulfill this verse in my life, and then tell Him, “Today I have a paint job here in the neighborhood. I need Your help, Lord. I can’t do this without You. That’s how sick I’ve felt lately. I don’t have the strength to do this on my own. You have strengthened me before and I trust You will do it again. In Jesus mighty name, amen.”

After that, I get up, get dressed for work, load up the truck, and kiss my wife goodbye. I stop by the paint store to pick up some supplies. I’m still nauseous and having bad left abdomen pain. My anxiety is also messing with me. I try not to focus on it. I get to the job by 8:30am. I’m in major pain all morning as I work. MAJOR PAIN! Again, I want to go to the E.R. and get help, but it’s pointless so I get it out of my mind. “This will pass Jason. Hang in there.”

At 11:30am, I take a break for lunch and head to Chipotle. I order a burrito bowl … just white rice, double chicken, and some guac. My stomach typically does okay with those three items. I still feel nauseous with left abdomen pain, major fatigue, and malaise. After eating, I put my seat back in my work truck and rest for about 20 minutes. I end up texting with one of my friends who is battling brain cancer.

I’m back on the job by 1pm. Now my upper stomach aches. It feels bloated like it needs to release some gas. 20 minutes later I finally begin belching and it releases the pressure. “Why is my stomach so jacked up the last few months?” I drunk a little bit of Starbucks coffee as I continued painting the ceilings. Thankfully, today I didn’t really deal with one of my nasty headaches that brings on horrible brain fog. As the afternoon progressed, my symptoms began to reduce. Thank God! I worked til 4:30pm and then packed up. I have to be careful not to overdo it.

I came home, put my equipment away, and just laid on the floor with the dogs for 30-minutes. They help me feel relaxed. My neck and mid-back are extremely sore. I took some meds and supplements to help me … Gaba, Turmeric, Magnesium, Vitamin C, Omega 3 Oil, Vitamin D, 5-HTP, Selenium, 6 drops of Cats Claw in water, and .25mg of Clonazepam. I eat some dinner with the family, get cleaned up, and then relax on the couch with a small cup of fresh coffee. I send a contract to a customer and deposit a check online.

Now I’m typing this blog. I feel decent right now. Definitely much much better than I was this morning. I’m extremely grateful for the respite. I’m also extremely grateful for what I was able to accomplish at work today. At times, the pain felt unbearable, but God helped me through.

I did it!

Thank You, Lord.

So that’s the latest with me. Still battling. One day at a time.

Time to relax and watch some TV. Tomorrow I’m back at it … more ceilings to paint.

Battling with you,

Jason

Jason T. George is not a medical professional. The content of BattlingLyme.com is for informational purposes only and is not intended to substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, and treatment. Always seek the advice of your physician or other qualified health provider with any questions or concerns you may have regarding a medical condition. Never disregard professional medical advice or delay in seeking it because of something you have read, seen, or heard from Jason T. George.

You have to take action in order to heal!

This morning has been so very difficult … nausea, left lower abdomen pain, headache, brain fog, anxiety, fatigue, muscle twitching, and just that overall yuck/sick feeling. I did my best to push through it and accomplish a few items on my to-do list …

  • Began my day reading some helpful words from Charles Spurgeon and Scripture.
  • Took time to pray and journal.
  • Went to the paint store and picked up supplies for this week’s paint job.
  • Went to the UPS store and mailed in my SIBO test kit.
  • Went to the grocery store to get a few organic food items I was out of.
  • Cleaned all my paint equipment for this week’s paint job.
  • Booked appointment with my Lyme Specialist for next week.
  • Booked appointment with my Neurologist for next week.
  • Checked on a friend with Lyme who was suffering really really really bad yesterday.

It’s now 12pm. I had to stop everything and just sit and rest my body. In about 30-minutes, I’ll try to accomplish some more on my to-do list. The level of pain I endured this morning would make the average person stop everything and rush to the E.R. I’m not being overly dramatic. It was that bad. I’m learning to function through it when it gets that bad. It’s not easy. Believe me … a big part of me wanted to go to the E.R. but I’ve been there, done that, and they do absolutely nothing to help me. The last time I went to the E.R. they checked my blood pressure, resting heart rate, bloodwork, and ran an ECG. The doc told me that my test results are “perfect” and that I should follow-up with the Lyme Specialist I’m seeing. 🙄 “Frustrating” is not even the word!

When the pain gets really bad like it was this morning, it definitely forces me to pray more and I literally have to talk myself through it … “It’ll calm down, Jason. Just give it time. You’ve been here before. Stay calm. Stay positive. God is with you.”

There were a few moments this morning where I definitely felt overwhelmed with all of it. I never thought I’d be dealing with Lyme Disease for this long. Never. But I realize that wallowing or complaining about it does me no good. All I can do is keep battling for my health and that means I have to be proactive …

  • Keep listening to health podcasts and reading books and articles on the subject.
  • Keep meeting with my therapist.
  • Go back to my Lyme Specialist for more testing, treatment, and a new supply of supplements, meds, etc.
  • Keep taking my vitamins, supplements, and meds even when they make me feel worse.
  • Keep detoxing daily.
  • Keep on praying and trusting God to get me through this.
  • Keep helping other Lyme fighters.

I can’t just sit and do nothing. Nor can I just sit and hope that tomorrow will be a better day. I have to take action in order to heal. That’s how it works.

Here’s a little motivational mantra I often say to myself …

Pain is my friend. Heaven is my home. This is the only Hell I’ll ever know. God is with me. Never quit!

So that’s the latest with me and my on-going battle with Lyme Disease.

Battling with you,

Jason

Jason T. George is not a medical professional. The content of BattlingLyme.com is for informational purposes only and is not intended to substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, and treatment. Always seek the advice of your physician or other qualified health provider with any questions or concerns you may have regarding a medical condition. Never disregard professional medical advice or delay in seeking it because of something you have read, seen, or heard from Jason T. George.

Right Now I’m NOT Happy, NOT Rejoicing, and NOT Giving Thanks!

It’s worse than usual this week, and I’m not sure why.

I can do very little physical work and I hate that. I want to be working my job, going to the gym, trail running, working in my yard … FREGGIN’ DOING LIFE! But lately, when I physically exert myself, excruciating pain shoots through my lower left abdomen up into my left rib cage and sometimes up into my left chest. It’s so bad that it floors me. I mean I literally have to lay on the floor until it subsides. After multiple tests, doctors have no answer as to why this is happening.

The abdomen pain frequently triggers what I call “the forehead headaches.” These are not typical tension or migraine headaches. They’re different. They bring on a wicked feeling of confusion, disorientation, and weakness. It’s not mere “brain fog.” It’s much worse than that. It feels like my brain is going into shut-down mode and disconnecting from my body. When it hits, there’s nothing I can do to stop it. I just have to wait it out.

Then (if all that were not enough), my anxiety can suddenly spike for no apparent reason. It’s so intense that I feel like I’m going to jump out of my skin. I don’t like calling it an “anxiety attack” or “panic attack” because I’m actually not being attacked. What’s really happening is my brain is unconsciously trying to protect me from what’s going on inside of my body so it triggers my nervous system to go into “fight or flight” mode. I do my best to passively accept it. If you try to escape it or fight it or if you freak-out over it, you’ll only fuel it. I’ve learned that passively accepting it and giving it time to pass is the best thing to do to activate my parasympathetic nervous system to trigger “the relaxation response.” One of the many things that late-stage Lyme Disease jacks-up is your nervous system and/or your vagus nerve.

When I have these “episodes” (with the abdomen and rib pain with the forehead headaches with the anxiety spikes) … it’s extremely difficult for me to talk because I feel so mentally off, disoriented, and not even present. I literally have to talk softly and slowly, and even that takes incredible effort. It’s so weird and frustrating. When all of it is hitting at once, it actually hurts my brain to talk. I know that must sound strange to most people.

(feeling some confusion right now)

I’m not sure if these “episodes” are just a bad herx reaction to the homeopathic/herbal medicines that I’m taking. I think that’s what’s going on and I actually hope that’s what’s going on, because if they’re herx reactions then that means the bad stuff is dying inside of me and I just need to do a better job of binding and detoxing all of it.

This Thursday, I go back to see my Lyme Specialist in Frederick, MD (Greg Lee). I’m hoping he can help me understand what’s going on with these “episodes” and help eliminate or at least reduce them. I remember what he and another Lyme Specialist told me during my first visit, “This isn’t a drive thru, Jason. It takes time to recover … and I hope you’re not a Girl Scout.” I was like, “Yeah, I’m tough. I’m in it for the long haul. I’ll be okay.”

Well, I’m not okay. I haven’t been “okay” for quite some time, but I just kept trying to “cowboy up.” ENOUGH! Today I actually met with a therapist to talk about what I’m going through because I’ve finally come to the point where I admit that I can’t handle this on my own. I’m not smart enough or strong enough. Its just too much for me to try and go solo. Did you know that the leading cause of death among Lyme sufferers is suicide? Don’t worry … NO, I’m not having suicidal thoughts. I’m just admitting that I need help … not only physically, but also mentally … and I sincerely don’t give a rip what people think or say about me seeing a therapist for all of this.

Bottling-up my negative thoughts, fears, questions, and emotions is NOT healthy. It’s toxic, and that’s what most men do, and in my opinion that’s the reason why more men than women are alcoholics, drug addicts, abusers, and suicidal. Trying to be “an army of one” with chronic physical and mental suffering is not only foolish … it’s EXTREMELY dangerous! So I did some research and found a therapist to work with, and guess what? She’s also fought through Lyme Disease herself. Dude, she gets it! She can finish my sentences!

I think our first session went pretty well. It was basically just a time to get to know each other, and I got some things out that I needed to.

This evening as I type this … I’m NOT happy … I’m NOT rejoicing … and I’m NOT giving thanks. I’m hurting, and I’m trying to stabilize physically and mentally. Today I’ve been so tempted to go to back to the ER, but I know it will just be more of the same tests with the same results with the same clueless doctors with another medical bill to pay. No thank you.

(long 10-minute pause)

Writing this blog post has been kind of therapeutic. It’s actually helping to trigger the relaxation response. Finally the waves are beginning to die down. I wanted to write while I was in the midst of an “episode” … when everything feels so negative, frustrating, overwhelming, and hopeless. Just keeping it real people.

Man, I’ve said it before, but it’s worth saying again … this disease is without a doubt the hardest thing I’ve ever been through in my entire life (and if you know me, then you know I’ve been through some serious $#%@ over the last 44 years … physically, mentally, and emotionally)! Those of you who are fellow Lyme Warriors, you know exactly what I’m talking about with how hard it is. Some of you reading this will roll your eyes at what I’m about to say, but I’ve had fellow Lyme Warriors tell me that giving birth, passing kidney stones, battling cancer, and even being shot (he was a police officer) … were nothing in comparison to battling late-stage Lyme Disease. Don’t misunderstand me … I’m not in anyway trying to minimize those other struggles. I’m just trying to help people understand that this disease is much worse than most people realize (including medical professionals).

If you’ve never seen the documentary Under Our Skin, you should check it out.

Under Our Skin from DecimalZero on Vimeo.

I would appreciate your prayers during this agonizing part of the climb. I’m definitely praying for many of you who’ve shared your pain and suffering with me.

My email is Jason@Narrowtrail.com

Don’t give up.

Reach out and get help if you need it (physically, mentally, emotionally, whatever).

You’re not weak for doing that.

Battling with you,

Jason

Jason T. George is not a medical professional. The content of BattlingLyme.com is for informational purposes only and is not intended to substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, and treatment. Always seek the advice of your physician or other qualified health provider with any questions or concerns you may have regarding a medical condition. Never disregard professional medical advice or delay in seeking it because of something you have read, seen, or heard from Jason T. George.