Wednesday, Feb. 3, 2021 – 8pm …
I cannot even begin to put into words how utterly miserable I felt today. It wasn’t just the physical pain/symptoms that crushed me into dust. It was also the heaviness of my brain fog and the unsettling anxiety that came with it. Mentally I lost my ability to properly comprehend and organize information. I was finishing recording a podcast episode when I had to stop everything.
Looking at the screen hurt.
Even praying in my head hurt.
I was hit with a severe herxheimer reaction.
A herxheimer reaction (AKA = “herx”) is an adverse response to toxins released by bacteria killed by your antibiotic or herbal treatment. With a herx … you’re basically killing Lyme spirochetes (or co-infections or parasites) faster than your body can eliminate them. The accumulation of all the toxins inside of your body can make your symptoms skyrocket until your body can eliminate all of that nasty junk through detoxing methods. Today’s herx was one of my worst. I was MISERABLE people!
My friends who also battle Lyme Disease (along with other tick-born co-infections and/or parasites) say that a severe herxeimer reaction can feel like death. They’re not being overly dramatic. Some of them have given birth to children and some of them have battled through cancer, and they’ve told me that the pain of Lyme Disease is worse … and (in my experience) the worst pain that Lyme Disease can throw at you is the pain of a severe herxheimer reaction. I have often used the phrase, “I feel like DEATH right now.” I don’t know how else to describe it. With a herx, symptoms can vary from person to person. For me, today’s herx brought on a yuck/flu-like feeling, migraine, brain fog, trouble articulating, chills, shakes, muscle twitching, fatigue, and a weird kind of tense/anxious feeling throughout my body.
A few years ago, I heard that the #1 cause of death related to Lyme Disease is suicide, and I can believe it. Overwhelmed, exhausted, and debilitated with chronic pain, mental anguish, and years of expensive treatments that don’t seem to work … people with late-stage chronic Lyme Disease completely lose the will to live because they believe that their life will never get better. They believe the lie that death must be better than the life their living. Often times they also believe that their death will alleviate their family of the burden that they believe they’ve become.
This is what late-stage chronic Lyme Disease can do to a person who was once full of life, energy, love, joy, peace, and positivity. It’s sad. I hate it. It’s one of the most complex, misunderstood, and under-diagnosed diseases in the world. The majority of those in the Medical Community are of no help to those of us with late-stage chronic Lyme Disease. Most in the Medical Community won’t even recognize late-stage chronic Lyme Disease as a diagnosis and of course that means that your medical insurance won’t cover the treatments you desperately need. If you want to get well, it’s all out of pocket. You’re on your own, and it’s a long and difficult battle. There are no quick-fix, short-cuts, or magic pills.
For me personally, I know that if I did not have a personal relationship with God through my faith in the Lord Jesus Christ … and if I did not have the love, support, and prayers of my wife, friends, and other Lyme Warriors … I don’t believe I’d make it. Most likely, I’d turn to illegal drugs to try and cope, and who knows what that would lead to … definitely not anything positive.
Over the past year, I’ve been learning how to better manage the horrible days (like today). Your mental game is a HUGE part of your personal survival, healing, and growth. On my worst days, I now remind myself that not everyday is as bad as today. I remind myself that over the years of battling chronic late-stage Lyme Disease there have been some good days with some amazing pain-free moments. There have been incredible moments of peace, joy, comfort, and laughter in this long and agonizing battle … and some incredible friendships have been formed, and some old friendships have been strengthened because of it. On my worst days … in my worst moments … I have to make myself mentally zoom-out of the moment and put it in proper perspective of the big picture. Today, during my very worst moment, I told myself, “Yes, this moment right here and right now is HORRIBLE, but not every day or every moment is like this. It’s just a severe herxheimer reaction, Jason. It’ll eventually pass. The clouds will part. The waves will die down. The sun will shine. You’ve made it through before. You’ll make it through again. You always make it through because you’re not a victim. You’re a warrior!”
YOU’RE NOT A VICTIM. YOU’RE A WARRIOR!
I often have to remind myself of that truth.
If you believe you’re a victim and you allow yourself to fall in the deep dark pit of self-pity, you’re body, mind, and spirit are never going to heal and grow. I’m convinced that you have to develop a warrior’s mentality to succeed at anything in this broken world.
As I type this, I’m feeling much better than I was earlier today.
The clouds have parted. The waves have died down. The sun is shining. I made it through.I always make it through.Because I’m not a victim. I’m a warrior!I hope that in some way this encourages you in whatever battle you may be facing right now. Remember … when it gets really bad … zoom-out of the moment and put it in proper perspective of the big picture. Talk yourself through it. Do not allow a victim-mentality to form. Do not allow yourself to fall into the deep dark pit of self-pity. Develop a warrior’s mentality. Keep learning how to overcome your enemy. Keep battling-on and don’t forget to help others along the way.
*Also, for those of you who are interested, here is my updated/current treatment protocol …
1 Capsule of Vital Plan’s Brain Boost (Lion’s Mane, Cat’s Claw, Bacon, Ashwagandha, Ginkgo Biloba).
1 Capsule of Vital Plan’s Mitochondrial Support (Vit. C, Vit. E, L-Glutathione, NAC, Alpha Lipoic Acid, CoQ10, Mixed Tocopherols).
1 Capsule of Vital Plan’s Prevention Plus (Multiple Vitamins and Supplements).
1/2 Capsule of Vital Plan’s Adaptogen Recovery (Chinese Skullcap, Cordyceps, Reishi Mushroom, Rehmannia).
2 Capsules of Migratone.
Omega 3 Fish Oil.
Digestive Enzymes with Prebiotics and Probiotics.
Vitamin D (5000 IU).
Vitamin C .
CBD Oil (50mg).
Venlaflaxine ER 75mg.
Burbur Pinella (20 drops in water as needed for brain fog).
Trazodone 100mg before bed.
Chlorella (for binding/detoxing).
Anti-Parasite Essential Oils.
Cellcore BioMolecular Oxygen.
4 Sprays of ACZ Nano Extra Strength (for detoxing and immune support).
Activate Charcoal (as needed for binding/detoxing).
Ibuprofen 800mg (as needed for migraines).
Clonazepam .12mg to .25mg (as needed, but I try to use CBD instead).
CBD Clinic – Pain Relief Ointment on Sore Muscles/Joints.
Organic Coffee Enemas (as needed for detoxing).
Epsom Salt Baths (at least every other day for detoxing).
Alka Seltzer Gold with Lemon Water (for herxing)
Essential Oil Roller (Frankincense, Copaiba, Chamomile, Lavender, Eucalyptus) for Migraine Relief … I put on forehead, temples, behind ears, and on neck.
Daily Scripture Reading.
Daily Prayer and Meditation.
Weekly Men’s Support Group via Zoom.
Weekly listen to Helpful Podcast or Audio Books.
Weekly listen to Encouraging Music.
Text/Talk to my wife, a friend, a counselor, a fellow Lyme-Warrior when I’m super anxious, depressed, discouraged, or just overwhelmed with all of it.
Daily Exercise/Movement (Nothing intense. Yesterday I could only do a 3/4 mile walk with my dog).
7 to 8 hours of sleep per night.
At lunch time I lay down on the floor and rest for about 20 to 30 minutes. I can never fall asleep so I just rest deeply, pray, mediate, etc.
I eat 95% Organic Food … I’m also Gluten Free, Dairy Free, Very Very Very Little Sugar, and no Artificial Sweeteners … I also avoid Pork and Raw Sushi (potential for parasites with those) … oh, and I also avoid processed foods, beans, most nuts, nightshades, potato chips and corn chips.
Fresh Organic Celery Juice (several times per week).
Currently trying out DNRS (Dynamic Neural Retraining System).
Chiropractor – At least once per month.
FYI … I just stopped taking Melia Supreme, Morinda Supreme, and Mimosa Supreme. I was using those powerful herbal supplements to target parasites, but I need a break from them after this latest herx! You have to listen to your body. Sometimes you need to pulse, break, reduce dosage, whatever.
FYI … I was doing Infrared Sauna at least once per week at a local Spa. That got shutdown due to COVID. I’m going to purchase my own infrared sauna soon. I need to be sweating more for proper detoxing and the heat feels amazing. I’m purchasing a Sunlighten.
Jason T. George is not a medical professional. The content of BattlingLyme.com is for informational purposes only and is not intended to substitute for professional medical advice, diagnosis, and treatment. Always seek the advice of your physician or other qualified health provider with any questions or concerns you may have regarding a medical condition. Never disregard professional medical advice or delay in seeking it because of something you have read, seen, or heard from Jason T. George.